In Dec 2014, Melanie “Mel B” Brown attempted to die by self-murder during an generally low indicate in her life, she reportedly reveals in her new book.
In an mention published by U.K. opening The Sun from her stirring memoir, Brutally Honest, a thespian recounts swallowing 200 Aspirin pills, that she’d been stockpiling for years, on Dec. 11,2014, after returning from cooking with her then-husband, Stephen Belafonte.
The X Factor decider writes that nonetheless during a time her life looked glamorous, she “felt emotionally battered.”
“I felt nauseous and detested by a male who once betrothed to adore and strengthen me, my father and manager Stephen,” she explains. “A male who after 10 years of matrimony now had a library of sex tapes that could — as we both good knew — ruin my career and destroy my family.”
However, after swallowing a final pill, Brown knew that she had done a mistake, according to The Sun excerpt.
“Suicide was not a answer. we had to make my life count. we had to get to a hospital,” she writes in a memoir, according to The Sun, adding that nonetheless her memories from this time are hazy, she remembers “throwing” herself during a tangled door, that left her with manifest bruises on her face and shoulder. She writes that those marks that would be manifest during an X Factor uncover she attended 3 days later.
After collapsing and going in and out of consciousness, Brown claims in a mention that she was ecstatic to a hospital, where she mislaid alertness again.
Upon waking up, her eldest daughter Phoenix Chi, now 19, was “furious,” Brown writes, according to The Sun excerpt.
“Of all a memories from all those hours, it is a one that still floors me,” Brown says, job it “the saddest impulse of my life.”
While Brown skipped one X Factor show following her hospitalization, even yet her doctors suggested opposite it, she done a preference to attend a Sunday taping a following day, The Sun reported.
After job adult her stylist, Brown was told of a few outfit options that would cover a bruises and markings on her arms caused by IV drips, though a thespian refused, wanting to wear a strange dress she had motionless on.
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“I indispensable all those bruises to be seen,” she writes, adding that she also done an equally absolute choice: to take off her matrimony ring, according to The Sun.
This year, Belafonte and Brown staid their divorce and all abuse allegations done opposite Belafonte by a thespian were dropped, according to TMZ, that also reported that Belafonte would accept $5,000 a month in child support in further to monthly wedding support totaling $15,000.
After 10 years of marriage, Brown and Belafonte finalized their divorce in Dec 2017. The authorised subdivision came 9 months after she filed for divorce that March.
Also in Oct 2017, a exes reached an agreement on a domestic assault apportionment of their divorce with Brown similar to dump a ask for a proxy confining sequence she had filed in Apr opposite Belafonte.
If we or someone we know is deliberation suicide, greatfully hit a National Suicide Prevention Lifeline during 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
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